humbling myself
is not difficult
for me

at least i dont think so
i suppose
the mere statement itself
sounds
proud
but


i
find
myself
always
begging
forgivenesss


i placed a large clock on the wall

time:
minutes before midnight

no batteries
no plugs

forever
moments before midnight

i ask:
what is God's will for me?
this moment?
this day?
this year?

I may choose to struggle with myself, but when all is silent.........and still.............I DO KNOW
regardless of whatever human struggle may wrestle my most inward being
WHEN I AM STILL
..........
ALL IS WELL
..........
WITH MY SOUL
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BECAUSE JEHOVAH GOD IS WITH my SOUL!
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and why HE has chosen me??? is anyone's guess?????????????

BUT I PRAISE HIS MOST HEAVENLY NAME THAT HE DID

AMEN